I got an answer back today and she is only available in September and we will have to let the clinic (and her) know whether we want to go ahead in September by then end of this month. It has sent me into a bit of a tailspin, we were still discussing what we wanted to do this year. There is a lot to think about - we need to get the money together, we need to make sure that we are ready, we need to get ourselves healthy and in shape and I need to start up all of my fertility extras. Cripes - I really didn't want to have to make this decision so soon.
The other side of it, of course, is that we could always use another donor. It is also scary to me using this donor again considering JBB was the only embryo that was a survivor and the 'what if we don't even get one?' next time. It was fine this time because we had JBB and he is wonderful and gorgeous but I can't help but think, what if next time the little mite doesn't stick and we have to try again - it would be good to have some embryo's on ice so that we didn't have to go through the whole process again.
I am not sure what to do. On one hand, I really believe that if you set a goal, you will achieve it (ie. you will find the money, get the time off, get healthy, lose the weight) but on the other hand, do we want to put ourselves under such pressure?
We have a lot of thinking and discussing ahead of us.