Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Amidst Grief, Cautious Optimism....
It is looking very promising and I am super thankful.
Thank you all for your lovely messages about my Dad. I arrived home safely on Sunday night, JourneyMan and JBB met us at the airport - they were both a sight for sore eyes, I can tell you - so much hugging, I was immediately comforted. After tucking JBB in bed, I went straight to my Mum and Dad's place where my Mum, 2 sisters, brother and Aunt (Dad's sister) were all waiting for me. As I hugged and cried with each of them, I realised how much love I have and how loved I am. It was a beautifully sad night.
I won't go in to the whole story right now, suffice to say that the past 2 days have been spent making funeral arrangements. I am emotionally, physically and spiritually exhausted but amongst it all, I am also filled with hope that this might be our cherished second baby, a sibling for our darling JBB. One thing that stands out in my mind over the past couple of days is that, I will not give up until JBB has a sibling. Being surrounded by my sisters and brother, I have felt bathed in love, support and with a life shared. I cannot imagine JBB not having that support in his life. I am hoping that this cycle brings us a baby so that we can give the gift to both of them of companions to walk along life's road.
I now have to write my part of the eulogy for my Dad, I want to perfectly express how I felt about him in my life - especially how proud I am to be his daughter.