The Transfer and 1DPT

The transfer itself went well, the lead up to it was a little rocky.  I woke up at 3am and 4am and someone in the hotel was smoking (despite it being a non smoking hotel) and it was coming through the vents to our room.  I was ropable and so first thing in the morning, we asked to move rooms because I just didn't want to stay in a room (especially on 2 days of bed rest) that was filled with smoke.  Before we requested this though, I had a call with JourneyMan's mum and JBB - it is sooooo nice to see him, I just miss my boys so much.

Changing rooms caused a bit of a debacle because initially they put us into a terrible room with a rollaway bed that looked out onto silo's - what!?!?!  I was very upset at this point and said 'I am going to the hospital, I need this organised and I don't need the stress'.  They said that they would organise it before we got back at about 4pm so we went off for our massage treatments, got packed up so they could move us and then met our car that we had booked for the day.

Until I got in the car I was a little bit stressed, then I had to let it all go.  The bestie was a mega champ in this respect - talking me down and making sure that I was relaxed before we got to the clinic.  Once we got there, we had time to grab some lunch and decompress.  Once I got up to the clinic, I was super relaxed.  I was completely prepared with my phone and headphones with my fertility mp3's on it and I had my book to read while I waited.

It all went off without a hitch and the two embies were some seriously good looking ones!!  I felt great and when we got back to the new room, it was good and had a lovely view of the pool.  So the rest of the night consisted of a phone call to JourneyMan, some texting to my people to update them, room service and some dvd's.

I got to sleep well last night but I woke at about 1:30am to wee and then I woke again at 5am and couldn't get back to sleep so I did some reading and texting to JourneyMan.  Unfortunately though, JBB has been sick - we think just with teeth coming but I can't help worrying - it physically hurts me to not be there to comfort him to make him feel better. 

I also was very down this morning, for the first time I really contemplated this cycle failing and it really upset me.  Once again JourneyMan and the Bestie came to the rescue - JourneyMan with some lovely text words and the Bestie with some good distraction techniques.

I had some reasonable face time with JBB and JourneyMan this afternoon and then it has just been movies and then some DVD's.  I am still worried and I think it is going to be a tough 2WW (which one isn't) - I just want this so desperately to work!!

1dp5dt - Bed Rest

Not much to report today as I have been on bed rest all day. The transfer yesterday went well though. In fact, I really don't think that it could have gone any better and if these things actually matter, then hopefully we are staring down the barrel of a positive result!!

I started off the day with an hypnosis mp3 and then did my yoga, another hypnosis mp3, took my tablets and herbs, had a nice breakky and then headed off to my massage and head massage. This was truly blissful and honestly, I couldnt have been any more relaxed if I tried. I removed the before transfer intradermals and marked the places where the post intradermals would go and then had a nice hot bath.

I got to the clinic in plenty of time to have lunch downstairs and then it was time to go up to the clinic. This time they gave me a Xan.anx which was very pleasant and the transfer did not hurt, thank goodness. I listened to my hypnosis mp3 another couple of times post transfer and then it was time to go back to the hotel. I had an amazing sleep last night but am now very much looking to get home to my boys.

Today was non eventful and there definitely have been no symptoms, only some very light cramps that are barely worth mentioning. Yesterday before the transfeer, the pervasive feeling that I had was that 'I'm ready', today my stupid mind has kicked into gear and now I am worried about the quality of blastys and also what will happen if it is not a positive result.

I am trying very hard to be positive but my I am finding it difficult. It is going to be a long 9 days.

Transfer Day!

Well, I am at the hotel having a nice relax happily reporting that I have a AA Grade hatching blasty nestled in - yay!! Now comes the waiting, the part that I am the worst at.

It was a very good day. JBB has actually slept in to 5:30am the past two mornings (instead of 3am, we are celebrating!!) and we went and had breakfast at 6am as usual. JBB had some big play time and then had his morning nap and it was time to go. I went to have a massage before the transfer and JourneyMan took JBB to the indoor playground. We met up at the clinic and JourneyMan and JBB only stayed until they called me in because I needed to be as relaxed as possible and having little 'perpetual motion' jumping around the joint was just not going to cut it.

I was a bit nervous going in, as apart from the fertilisation report, we hadn't heard any progress on the embryo's. I had been in clinic rooms before and received horrible news such as 'no, there wasn't at pick up'. Even last time, the scary issue of only having one embryo for transfer (not that we would have transferred more than one but it would have been nice to have something for the freezer). When the doctor walked toward me, I felt sick with apprehension, I don't think I could take bad news. It was, however, the very best of news - 6 blastocysts of sufficient quality to freeze. There was one AA (excellent), two A (very good) and 3 AB (good). We have never been in this position before - we have embryo's in the freezer!!

The transfer itself went very well, though it was a bit ouchy with the catheter - booo. I had my hypnosis and subliminal mp3's on the phone so I listened to them to be as relaxed as possible. They then wrapped me up and I had to stay resting for 2 hours. The clinic organized for a car to drive me back to the hotel and I hugged on little JBB hugely, I had missed his little cheeky face all day today. He was in top form.

All of a sudden, I feel very apprehensive. I really, really hope that this works. I hope that my dear little embie burrows in deep.

And now we wait....

Lazy Days in Bangkok

Not much to report here. I am trying to keep up with the medication - there are so many, even more than last time:

Prog.ynova X 3 per day
Crin.one X 1 per day
Duph.aston X 2 per day
Pred.isolone X 2 per day

Added to this I have the chinese herbs twice a day and honestly, the alarm on my phone is going off all day.

The weather has been very hot, rainy and stormy over the weekend. JBB has not been impressed with the big claps of thunder but we have still be able to get to the pool in breaks in the weather. He started out quite wary of the pool but he is loving it more and more each day. All we have really done for the past couple of days is swim, watch JBB play in the outdoor area and do a little shopping.

Time is going very quickly, I am looking forward to the transfer but am trying to savor our time together. We ventured out to the Aquarium today but it was so busy that we decided to wait and go tomorrow when it first opens so it will hopefully not be as frantic as it was today. We took JBB to an indoor playground and my goodness it was like the Lord of the Flies in there. He got doofed on the head by a swinging padded bag, he got stepped on my an over zealous kid and overall, I think he was a bit overwhelmed - he did crack me up though because he would say 'ooooooohhhh' every time he saw something.

JBB has had some grumpy pants on over the past couple of days, he is not getting enough sleep so he is getting cranky. He is also still waking up at 3am every night, though sometimes he goes back to sleep (generally for JourneyMan but not me - **sigh**) but sometimes will stay awake.

The plans are coming together for the transfer. We will leave to go to the clinic at about 12pm on Tuesday. I will have a massage beforehand and hopefully will be as relaxed as possible. JourneyMan is going to take JBB home once I go in because he is a bit to raucous!! I have brought my transfer outfit - I did the same thing last time as well.

Well, it's off to the Aquarium tomorrow and then I need to get some pressies for people - better get to bed cos I'll be up at 3am.