Back in July, I wrote this post about a friend of mine who was pregnant with her first child
at 42 (I said 43 at the time but she is 42) and because she seemed very
unexcited about the baby and shut down any excitement that I wanted to give
her, I was peeved and confused by the situation. It was something that I thought she would be ecstatic
about but she did not seem so.
Anyway, the baby shower was a couple of weeks ago and I had
another good talk to her. It turns out
that at the time she was terribly worried about the baby having down’s syndrome
or having something wrong because she is an older mother. She also just was not enjoying being pregnant,
she just wanted to have the baby. She
made the most moving speech about how her life had turned around in the last 12
months, she had met her soul mate, she got pregnant, she got engaged, they
moved in together – all in all a pretty busy 12 months.
I feel very bad now that I was slightly angry with her (even
though she didn’t know it) because I made an assumption that her lack of
excitement was because she wasn’t grateful enough and not because she was
worried about the baby. I mean
seriously, I definitely understand the worry of pregnancy, I felt like I didn’t
breathe out until I heard JBB cry. It
goes to show you that you really shouldn’t make assumptions about what’s going
on with people – I was very wrong and of course, my judgements were about me
and not my lovely friend.
The baby shower made me realise another thing as well. I like my friends and they really don’t
deserve me constantly withdrawing from them all when cycles go bad, or actually
even when I am cycling. They are all
very understanding and supportive, I believe I need to give them more credit. Once this cycle is over, I have vowed to
myself that whether it is positive or negative, I will have them all over for
lunch or something – it will be fun!! I
will not necessarily tell them what is happening with the cycles (because I
find that very hard) but there are plenty of other things to discuss!! I had such a great time at the baby shower
chatting and catching up with everyone, it was so nice – I really miss them.
In other worse news, this cold/flu/pharyngitis/pleurisy type
sickness is still kicking my arse, I woke up at 2:30am this morning and didn’t
get to sleep until after 4:30am (we get up at 6am) – my muscles were so sore I
had to have an Epsom salt bath just to get back to sleep. I keep thinking I am recovering and then it
comes back. Thankfully I am not too
worried about the party now, I am just going to do what I can do and get as
much rest as I can before I go. I know
it’s only a week but I feel if I can get some good rest in there before I go, I
will be tip top by the time of the transfer – lucky it is 5 days after I get to
Thailand
– yayers!
