Caution: Great Complaining Ahead (enter at own risk)

When I have seen other IF women get pregnant and then feel guilty for complaining about morning sickness or any of the other symptoms of pregnancy, I have always been quick to comment to give themselves a break and that if you feel like crap you feel like crap – so why can’t I give myself the same little buck up speech? I have been feeling very ordinary for the past week – the morning sickness is most definitely all day sickness and the only respite I seem to have is when I sleep – though lying on the couch also helps a bit too. I think I am going to have to have another weekend of couch surfing this weekend to keep it at bay.

I do feel guilty though for being a complainy pants when I have dreamed about being in this position for SOOO long and I try to keep seeing the positive sides – like that since I am feeling MS, I can assume that everything still seems to be going okay. But I am finding it a little hard to feel positive when I am feeling so yucky most of the time with the MS, almost constant low level cramps, I am having a lot of trouble sleeping and am absolutely exhausted.

On the positive side of things, I had lunch with my sister on Tuesday and it was wonderful to talk to her about all of my symptoms and for her to understand (she has 3 boys). She had very bad MS in all of her pregnancies where she threw up a few times a day every day for the first 4 months – poor thing, I am definitely not that bad!! I found it such a lovely day because I felt a bond with her that I hadn’t felt before because we had never shared this commonality before – it was fab. I am going to lunch with a pregnant friend tomorrow so that should also be good!

I am hoping that things will settle down when I can start to reduce the medications that I am taking and thankfully the reduction starts this weekend when I go from 3 a day of the oestrogen tablets to two a day and from twice a day oral progesterone to once a day – that will good! I will finish all medications (barring the blood thinner injections) at 12 weeks so only 4 weeks to go – yay!

Okay – best be off!! Sorry for all of the complaining!!!

Weekend wrap up and all day sickness...

Here is my weekend wrap up: I did nothing. Nada, zip, bupkis. I did go around to my besties place on Friday where we were allegedly doing work on our business but mainly had a day of chatting which was absolutely lovely - she has a really nice outdoor area and the weather was lovely - it was a good day!

On Saturday, JourneyDog and I had a day of bonding with the couch - we got very close! I watched Gone with the Wind and some mega trashy TV shows. I also slept alot. It was a good day. JourneyMan went on a long haul ride on a very windy coast road called The Great Ocean Road - a very big tourist destination in our State. He didn't get home until after 8:30pm and managed to get badly sunburned on his back where his jacket had ridden up and has been miserable ever since. Sunday was a day of a whole lot of lazy - very much like Saturday except we had JourneyMan as well!

Today, I made up for my lazy weekend by being a whirlwind of activity - I got mega amounts done which has made me feel better! Better about myself, I mean, I am still having all day sickness and today was quite bad - I thought I was going to have to dash out of a meeting and vomit - thankfully I didn't have to. It is funny what the IF journey does to you - I get some perverse pleasure when I feel the morning sickness, basically because it feels like a reassurance that JourneyBaby is still going along strong. The morning sickness has been quite bad over the past few days and today was the worst yet. Today I purchased some morning sickness supplements that were recommended in the packet of information that the OB sent through - I am hoping that they help out a bit.

Sorry for not posting the ultrasound pics - the camera is on the blink so I haven't been able to post them as yet - will do so as soon as possible. In other news, my friend who has 3 miscarriages let me know that she is 15 weeks pregnant today - I am SO happy for her, it has been a long road for her.

On my own front - the next couple of weeks are pretty quiet - just have to get my project up and running for go live. I am booked in to see my haemotologist on 2 February and then the OB on 3 February - that is also the week that the project goes live so it will be a big week.

I am exhausted - I am off to bed!